The Redesigned Mom

Never in my life did I think that I would become so paralized in my own skin, but I am working on it (and working on it and working on it). I was expressing my frustration at my continuing struggles at therapy the other day. I have licked the depression and anxiety, poof… gone. I have battled old demons, healed old wounds and gained unforeseen perspective. I have finally grown up and faced the real world. So why is everything still so hard?

Well I am having a hard time figuring out if I chose the best or worst time to take this on. Right now, life is simply lobbing me one stressful event after another. The timing has definitely not been ideal for extreme weight loss, but it has been primed for personal growth and that sometimes is even more important.

Well, here we are on protein day of cycle two of the Xtreme Fat Loss Diet. This week has been a struggle with me because of my thumb.

This process never ceases to amaze me. The weirdest stuff is happening to me. I squarely chalk this up to the fact that I must have had some serious stuff built up in my system as well as a significant amount of emotional blockage.

It’s kinda weird. I look in the mirror and see the same body that has been there, maybe a little thinner but I think that is just the fat goggles being removed.

But I feel thinner, especially through my middle where I carry most of my weight.