The Redesigned Mom

Never in my life did I think that I would become so paralized in my own skin, but I am working on it (and working on it and working on it). I was expressing my frustration at my continuing struggles at therapy the other day. I have licked the depression and anxiety, poof… gone. I have battled old demons, healed old wounds and gained unforeseen perspective. I have finally grown up and faced the real world. So why is everything still so hard?

Well I am having a hard time figuring out if I chose the best or worst time to take this on. Right now, life is simply lobbing me one stressful event after another. The timing has definitely not been ideal for extreme weight loss, but it has been primed for personal growth and that sometimes is even more important.

Today’s email from Isabel De Los Rios and The Diet Solution touched on something that rings close to me and that I think is really important. The mental and emotional side of losing weight. Anyone who ignores this is only destined to fail. Yes, you may lose some weight now, maybe even a lot of weight, but if you don’t feel that you deserve it, see yourself as a thin person who is happy and active and whole or if you continue with the negative talk, it is very likely you will gain all the weight back and more.

It pains me to say this but I have posted a before shot and my stats on the Extreme Fat Loss Page

Well, I made it through my first Extreme Fat Loss Diet fast day. It wasn’t really as hard as I thought it was going to be.

Well, here it is. Today I begin a 25 day plan that is supposed to burn an extreme amount of fat in an extreme way.

At this point I am hopeful and skeptical at the same time. Although this is a 25 day fast fat loss program, it is no magic pill. This program is on the extreme end of the spectrum and will take some serious dedication to make happen. But, it’s only 25 days and I am in dire need of a metabolic shake up so I’m giving it a fully dedicated go.

Although the Gabriel Method didn’t “work” for me, the underlying principles are very sound and I don’t think it had anything to do with The Gabriel Method itself.  It was all me.  I had some serious emotional issues to deal with and large mental blocks standing in my way.  I couldn’t even see that it [...]

I know that I have mentioned this maybe even several times in the past, but I just can’t get over how powerful it is when the same information comes at me from several unrelated sources. This always confirms for me that I am on the right track. Lately this phenomena is happening everywhere I look and so gives me confidence that although I sometimes feel like I am dangling from a hook, struggling to find solid ground as life zooms past me, everything is happening as it should and it helps me to trust myself and allow myself to be present to the changes happening in my life.

So, the story goes, it was laundry day and 106 degrees out and I needed something to throw on so I could wash my very limited supply of clothing appropriate for such a heat wave. I look up and there it is, hanging in my closet, just where it has been since the day it arrived. What the hey? and I put it on…

This process never ceases to amaze me. The weirdest stuff is happening to me. I squarely chalk this up to the fact that I must have had some serious stuff built up in my system as well as a significant amount of emotional blockage.