The Redesigned Mom

Taking responsibility for my life means many things to me. Much of the big stuff like the wall I put up between myself and others and how angry I was and generally nasty sometimes are gone – vanished like some sort of magic. What’s left are those things that can make a huge difference in my day to day life. these include being organized and responsible for remembering what forms need to be filled out, that there is a fieldtrip tomorrow and I need to send sancks to school on Wednesday. It also means taking responsibility for my health and my body and finally doing what it takes to be a healthy, confident, beautiful woman.

This process never ceases to amaze me. The weirdest stuff is happening to me. I squarely chalk this up to the fact that I must have had some serious stuff built up in my system as well as a significant amount of emotional blockage.

For this reading I will use the first ten sword cards and the first ten major arcana cards to examine how I am as a risk taker. Swords generally deal with struggles, power and strategy and I hope to see how I might best manage the risk and anxieties in my life.

I haven’t had a bad day in a while and by that I mean a depressed day.  
Yesterday I thought I was getting sick.  Weirdest thing, my nose ran non-stop causing a barrage of sneezes that I thought were going to drive me out of my mind.  Then I popped a 101 fever  with terrible [...]

Well, I have had another very emotional day.  It’s amazing what small things can bring me to my knees these days.  Just yesterday,  I was feeling so good.  I was feeling strong, I was sleeping well (well better anyway), I was having fun with the kids, I felt in control and like progress was being [...]

If your read my post, you have probably figured out that I have having some sort of psychotic break. No no, just kidding. But, I am going through a pretty difficult time. The whole reason I started this blog was to work out why I am feeling so lost and [...]

I am so angry.
I am not sure I have ever been so angry.
My body is one big knot.  Each day, I wake with a new knotted up muscles.  Today it is in my right shoulder.  Yesterday it was on the left side of my neck.
Yoga last night helped temperarly.  My yoga bliss was a much [...]