The Redesigned Mom

Today’s email from Isabel De Los Rios and The Diet Solution touched on something that rings close to me and that I think is really important. The mental and emotional side of losing weight. Anyone who ignores this is only destined to fail. Yes, you may lose some weight now, maybe even a lot of weight, but if you don’t feel that you deserve it, see yourself as a thin person who is happy and active and whole or if you continue with the negative talk, it is very likely you will gain all the weight back and more.

Taking responsibility for my life means many things to me. Much of the big stuff like the wall I put up between myself and others and how angry I was and generally nasty sometimes are gone – vanished like some sort of magic. What’s left are those things that can make a huge difference in my day to day life. these include being organized and responsible for remembering what forms need to be filled out, that there is a fieldtrip tomorrow and I need to send sancks to school on Wednesday. It also means taking responsibility for my health and my body and finally doing what it takes to be a healthy, confident, beautiful woman.

This process never ceases to amaze me. The weirdest stuff is happening to me. I squarely chalk this up to the fact that I must have had some serious stuff built up in my system as well as a significant amount of emotional blockage.

For this reading I will use the first ten sword cards and the first ten major arcana cards to examine how I am as a risk taker. Swords generally deal with struggles, power and strategy and I hope to see how I might best manage the risk and anxieties in my life.

I haven’t had a bad day in a while and by that I mean a depressed day.   Yesterday I thought I was getting sick.  Weirdest thing, my nose ran non-stop causing a barrage of sneezes that I thought were going to drive me out of my mind.  Then I popped a 101 fever  with [...]

Well, I have had another very emotional day.  It’s amazing what small things can bring me to my knees these days.  Just yesterday,  I was feeling so good.  I was feeling strong, I was sleeping well (well better anyway), I was having fun with the kids, I felt in control and like progress was being [...]

If your read my post, you have probably figured out that I have having some sort of psychotic break. No no, just kidding. But, I am going through a pretty difficult time. The whole reason I started this blog was to work out why I am feeling so lost and figure out who I am [...]

I am so angry. I am not sure I have ever been so angry. My body is one big knot.  Each day, I wake with a new knotted up muscles.  Today it is in my right shoulder.  Yesterday it was on the left side of my neck. Yoga last night helped temperarly.  My yoga bliss [...]