After several people have left very nice comments, but are also wondering what has happened to me and why I haven’t written anything in a while, I decided it is time for an update.

To be perfectly honest, I have been in a bit of a creative slump lately and also busier than usual. But even more than that, a little discouraged and embarrassed that I don’t have amazing transformative weight loss results to share. I never set out to blog about weight loss, it was just one of the many things in my life I was working on and therefore writing about. It kinda took off though and LOTS of people started coming to read about my journey.

Although I was excited that my blog was getting readership and it felt good that people were interested in what I had to say, exposing your insecurities and weaknesses is a vulnerable place to be and when the results didn’t come, the urge to belittle myself became really strong and the fear of failure took over. Then, when I took on some new business and became a founder in a technology startup, the time just seemed to pass and it was easier to ignore.  Work provided the perfect excuse not only to stop sharing, but also to be wishy washy about my commitment.

With all this said, I have actually made quite a bit of progress on the weight loss front even if it doesn’t include those fantastic “after” pictures. I have come to terms with the fact that it isn’t going to be easy for me to lose the weight this time and that there isn’t going to be a secret that fixes everything.

I have learned so much about nutrition and am reading some great materials, of which I will go into detail about later. I am reading about nutrition and metabolism and most importantly for me is the emotional part. Not only do I have pretty significant body image issues to get over but I have come to a place where I no longer believe I can do it and unfortunately that is rearing it’s head not only in my health but other parts of my life as well.  I am finding it very difficult to summon the emotional commitment to make changes in my life and this is my number one issue to address at this point.

I have a nutrition and meal plan that I am very happy with and that is working well for me. In the last few weeks, I have lost a net of 4 pounds, but more importantly I have lost 2 inches off my waist and I know some off my hips and thighs as well because my pants are all looser.

I signed up for the Trek Women’s Triathlon in Seattle in September as a goal for my workouts. I have discovered that I need quite a bit of structure in order to feel comfortable and that a big goal is a good motivator for me. I am enjoying running and am excited to purchase a bike in a few weeks.

Although I am a strong swimmer and so don’t have the typical fears of the swimming portion, the thought of going to the pool and swimming in a lane with other people is very scary for me (not really sure why), and so I haven’t been there yet.   Our local pool offers a masters swim/triathlon training class, so I really don’t have any excuse other than the fear block is kicking in big time.

I am still using many of the principles of The Gabriel Method as the advice is very sound, I just needed a little more structure and as Jon suggests some help with the emotional pieces. I still highly recommend this book and the information it contains. I still follow the basic principles, I just didn’t find enough structure for my personal needs and so have combined it with other information in the hopes of landing on something that works and is sustainable.

This is still a work in progress for me and now that I have broken the seal, so to speak, I hope to be able to share with you some of the materials and information I am learning as well as continued updates on my personal progress.

Stay tuned and good luck on your own journeys.

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